Letters of Support - John Wilder

Yesterday I wrote a mass letter to a bunch of the Alumni Merit Awards and included John Wilder. John Wilder, a Kennett boy, was head of TXU and when he left he was reputed to get a $647 million severance package. I don't know why I sent it but I have always liked him. He overnighted a wonderful letter to the Governor urging him to put me on the Regents. The Governor will be most impressed with his credentials and his input. I was too. I'd like to meet that Jane Stacy he was talking about.

Robert Cox called today and said that the Pikes were sending in letters and it is on Elizabeth Shelton's FB to send letters in. This show of support comes at a time when I needed some show of support. This delights me and the letters are beautiful and personal --most of the time citing something I did for them along the way and that is the greatest gift to me --the fact that I did not remember the deed!

Then Marilynn Bradford from Jefferson City called me (another millionaire) and wants me to go on the Mansion Board in Jefferson City. I agreed to do it if they elected me and that will not go over well with Betty Hearnes if it comes to pass but that is another thing that I cannot worry about. They need someone on the Board to help them raise money; I think I fit that bill. It involves going with the Governor and Mrs. Nixon to ask people for money. I can certainly handle that.

In retrospect, and in my prayer time, I have to wonder if I am being led to reach out to a more positive cloud out there at this time in my life and find my joy and well-being externally at this point in time. Sometimes, we need distance and meditation more than anything else in our life concerns. My prayer today is focused on Susan and her birthday--may she find peace and joy and a laugh that will hit her in the gut--may her hands not shake or tremble and may her eyes not dart in trouble but in a twinkle. May this truly be her day!

I feel better. I have slept nearly all afternoon and have not pushed myself to do anything. Watched the Closer.

Thinking about Compassion "Resentment is an open door for the conflict to win". I must constantly force myself not to resent the treatment that Betty bestowed but seek to feel compassion for her health issues, her loneliness--and her inability to reach out to feel another's pain. I need to stop thinking of what she did and why she did it; it does not matter. I need to think only of who she was and is--and that she is my sister, thru it all. The same is true of all the other people who have caused me pain in the family--I need to seek to see them through the eyes of compassion. Christ looked upon the people and saw their need in his gut! What does Betty need me to do to restore a family tie? I need to be asking, instead of resenting, or drawing away!

Sara just called and she is home. Colin is very upset. His longtime girlfriend just broke up with him and that is so sad for the one who gets the news! Trite phases count for nothing nor would I ever say them. Time is not something that gets much consideration as one deals with the hurt of breakup. I pray for Colin and I pray that he will find a strength in the Lord to meet his needs of the day.